Once I lived a life in aversion.

Deep pain was my portion;

Hurt was in my emotion.

Losing was my fear.

I had no one to share—

Why do even people care?

Life felt meaningless;

Having someone in life was pointless.

I had to go through rejection

And was scared to make any connection.

Running away from the crowd was my choice;

To be alone, I felt nice—

Anxiety was the price.

Uninvited came panic attack.

Enough, I cried, yet came in spiritual attack.

I wished for a break;

Nevertheless, my soul was broke.

With episodes of mental breakdown,

My life then was upside down.

Many times I had a thought to kill myself;

Someone waited to swallow my life in a gulp.

Once again stepped in my Savior—

Changed my sufferings of my prior.

In His perfect love, He cast out my fear;

I started to feel that the joy is near.

Then began my emotional healing;

Jesus Christ—my heart never stopped calling.

In His presence I found my dwelling.

To be continued…..